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Springsteen confesses he is ‘not completely well’

Bruce Springsteen playing guitar
Bruce Springsteen playing guitar Image credit: news.sky.com

Bruce Springsteen has spoken about his battles with mental health which has escalated since his 30s when the rock legend was diagnosed with depression.

The 72-year-old singer told Esquire magazine: “I’ve had to deal with a lot of it over the years.”

Springsteen went on to say there was a point in his life when he contemplated taking his own life.

“I once felt bad enough to say, ‘I don’t know if I can live like this,” he told the publication.

“I once got into some sort of box where I couldn’t figure my way out and where the feelings were so overwhelmingly uncomfortable.”

In his 60s The Boss suffered a second breakdown which he described as “an attack of what was called an ‘agitated depression.’

“During this period, I was so profoundly uncomfortable in my own skin that I just wanted OUT. It feels dangerous and brings plenty of unwanted thoughts. Demise and foreboding were all that awaited.

“Feelings became so overwhelmingly uncomfortable that I simply couldn’t find a twelve-by-twelve piece of the floor to stand on, where I could feel a sense of peace on.

“I had no inner peace whatsoever. And I said, ‘Gee, I really don’t know. I don’t know how long I could . . .’ It was a manic state, and it was just so profoundly emotionally and spiritually and physically uncomfortable that the only thing I’ve ever said was ‘Gee, I don’t know, man . . .’”

Springsteen was asked if he believes he should had been hospitalised during this challenging time of his life.

“All I remember was feeling really badly and calling for help,” he recalled.

“I might have gotten close to that and for brief, brief periods of time. It lasted for—I don’t know. Looking back on it now, I can’t say. Was it a couple weeks? Was it a month? Was it longer? But it was a very bad spell, and it just came.”

Bruce’s father, Doug, was diagnosed with schizophrenia in his later life. The history of mental health in his family has seen Springsteen to believe he “had things inside [of him]” that could “lead [him] to pretty bad places.”

He is now on medication to control his depression so he can concentrate on not only his music, but also bringing up three children.

Springsteen added: “All I do know is as we age, the weight of four unsorted baggage becomes heavier. With each passing year, the price of our refusal to do that sorting rises higher and higher.”

Bruce Springsteen acquired his nickname “The Boss," because he had a habit of collecting money earned during shows and then distributing it evenly among his band mates.