MC Bronze Nazareth talks grief

 Bronze Nazareth
Bronze Nazareth

Record Producer & MC Bronze Nazareth writes for ABLE2UK sharing his story going through grief and depression.

There’s some topics we don’t generally discuss in my community. It’s rare to hear a friend or close relative discuss ‘therapy’, or in general their mental health. One feeling we all go through and must experience, is unfortunately Grief. We’ve all lost or will lose a loved one and found ourselves dealing with those ‘feelings’.

Growing up I lost family members, I lost some friends and I also felt the grief when close friends lost a loved one. In 2014 however, my brother passed away due to complications from antphospholid syndrome. It was sudden. Unexpected. Unbelievable. He was 37. He and I were very close. 

It all happened during our rise to hip hop glory. Our popularity and reach were burgeoning. We had a group called the Wisemen, which too was flourishing. This all but ended the Wisemen. He was a key piece. 

I was left with a huge void in my life. I also didn’t know how to handle the grief my parents were feeling. I was also in mourning of my beloved group’s inevitable end. I was grieving deeply, and found myself in a dark place. I wasn’t interested in doing music, I was just going through the motions. 

Needless to say, my mental health was suffering and I needed a little help. So I reached out for help. For the first time, I went through a handful of therapy sessions. It absolutely did turn the storm into a little light, and then that light got brighter as I learned the tools and ways to deal with my grief. If you’re feeling like your load is too heavy, I’d say to give it a try. Just like we exercise our body, we need mental health exercise too. Sometimes we need a coach for our workouts, and a therapist is just a coach for mental fitness. 

So with my sessions I learned how to handle my feelings, and healthy ways to deal with my grief. One of my biggest forms of therapy is creating music, making songs that highlight feelings and emotions. I continue to make music that I know would make my late brother proud, as I continue with our dream. 

This gives me something to work on in his name and also serves as a therapeutic release. However, I’m still not too shy to connect with my therapist and work on myself when things get heavy, and I hope you won’t be either.’

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